XANAX. Sorry people, yeah punctuation could have helped and the desperate feeling that I guess came through in what I wrote; Yeah I won't even read it, was in part to a nice bloody/benzo blackout and a scare I got. But to all of the smart ass replies, like prostituting or ending on the corner with a cup or that I'm STRETCH.....cute stuff, real cute. Atleast what I wrote or atleast I think what I wrote had good intentions and was aimed at helping people down there and myself. I'll make sure to dwell on those positive words you all replied with when I'm hucking myself over a ledge on a Tres day. haaa but seriously, I apologize to the forums, I have a bad habit of getting online too late after I take my xanax before I pass out and the results are always interesting.
i definitely give you props for moving over there. enjoy it man
haha sounds right.ever hear the phrase dont buy a benz if ya cant afford the gas!??i wouldnt go down there if i was broke..your lucky your in pr and not mexico.your lucky its part of the us.your probly going to end up on the curb with a cup.theres plenty of surf guides around for good prices,an ad on a forum isnt going to help your cause.if i were u,id scavenge enough money to move back home wit your daddy..surfing isnt worth throwing your life away for a few good waves.
Scavenge enough money to move back home with my daddy? ha I made the decision to leave all of the bull**** behind me. I had to take a look at life and what I, and I alone thought of it. If it weren't for everyones opinion and their expectations and the general public's idea of what "success" is would you be where you are? Would you sit behind a desk dreaming of another life, another place or surfing, all the while trying to get enough ahead or save enough money to be able to go take that once a year surf trip for 2 weeks or even retire and go surf wherever you want whenever you want?
I made the decision to say F it. Why am I going to waste my youth and my happiness working somewhere I don't want to be, trying to get ahead and make enough money to be able to go travel and surf and when that time comes, my youth has passed me by. I have the rest of my life to be miserable and pretend. I never wanted the expected path, I have tried for years to try and lie to myself and tell myself that a good career is what I want and that I am "happy". Had the gorgeous perfect girlfriend with a house and a good job but was MISERABLE. There isn't enough of any drug in the world to help me pretend that's what I want anymore. I know that surfing is what makes me truly happy and that if I separate myself from the materialistic judgmental peers of my upbringing, I will have no care besides living, and living simply.
Is Rincon, Puerto Rico the ideal spot to buck against the system and get away? No. But it is convenient and I know the area and have people down there to live with and work with.
Was I remotely pretending to want to be a surf guide? I don't remember but I doubt it. I simply posted an inebriated rambling hoping to meet some like minded people that were going to be going to the same place I would be living and needed services that the local hotel doesn't offer or wanted a chill ride or something else that I could perhaps make a few bucks off of, but in no means prostituting myself or being remotely near a surf guide. I wouldn't take someone anywhere if they couldn't handle their ****. You ****s really know how to get under someones skin and be ****s. I guess thats what happens when you "scavenge enough money to move back home wit your daddy.. and have the mindset that "surfing isnt worth throwing your life away for a few good waves"...
Good on you, man...sh*t, the last couple days I've been feeling exactly the same, working to pay bills for what, so I can live here, ha, there's no f$cking waves here, as much as I tell myself, "oh yeah, it gets good here"..What a bunch of sh*t...you might want to lay off the prescription pills though, that sh*t ain't gonna help you retain any of that youth, just a thought. Good luck, man...wish i had your cohones.