so I've been surfing for a bit, still a beginner. I can stand up fine and catch waves fine but I find myself a little hesitant sometimes when it comes to paddling out to the lineup. Idk why, could be that i don't have a surfing partner, could be the deep water thing, idk. i do paddle to the back sometimes, but theres times where i just sit in front of the beach like a goon because i can't bring myself to do it, but when i'm out there i have no problem catching and riding a wave. what should i do, i know i'm being a p***y, xD.