Think i might have a problem. Was doing good using socially and now i am back on a binge. Can't let my phone charge. Fingers are going numb. My name is Nat and Im a swellaholic.
I'm don and I'm a swelliholic. I feel your pain. It's like I'm driving by an accident, and I have to throw on my brakes just to see the carnage.
Please give us the serenity to accept what cannot be changed, courage to change what should be changed, and the wisdom to distinguish the one from the other. Niebuhr, swellitheologian
Hi Nat. I'm Ben. I'm also an addict. I've been living with this disease for some time now. A woman once tried to help me, but the sight of barriers, fences, grass berms, and the smell of salt brought me to a full relapse about 5 years ago, I hit bottom, and haven't recovered since. I've given up hope.
I've been addicted for 42 years. I'm jonesing bad. My supplier has run out of goods here. Last year, my fix was cut so bad I had the Heebie Jeebies all winter. I've looked into rehab, but couldn't find any place that would help. I'm thinking of getting on smack or meth to alleviate my withdrawals.
I saw a mini documentary about some chicks that surf Rockaway. One of them said that she speaks with her therapist so that she can cope with missing waves... I laughed derisively, but every time I find my productivity interrupted by waist-high waves on a surfcam, I realize that I'm the pathetic one. In the end, it's just bobbing in the ocean, sliding down a plank. Pointless but for pleasure. Just like life.
