Ok. Let the bashing begin. I've been out in heavy surf and somedays I handle the head high and above days fine. I took a beating a few weeks ago during that big swell and a decent hold down into a jetty. I attempted to go out today which was bigger than expected but still only chest high with maybe some random shoulder high sets. I know the hold down the other week can attribute to my fear but I paddled out today (which wasn't big) and the fear came back. I felt the current taking me and I"m also out of shape after having kids. I did the walk of shame and was actually defeated and didn't attempt to paddle back out. I noticed this happens every now and then since I had my kids. It has never happened before I had kids. Does anyone else get this and how do you get it out of your head? I also found out I have exercise induced asthma which doesn't help either now. That causes me to cough during surfing and after for hours.